After reading my posts lately, I think that there is a lot of negativity in them. Most of this is from the great feelings of inadequacy that I feel as a new mother and a bit of the postpartum blues. I thought that the helpless feelings that I experienced during labor would be all over once he was born, but I see now that that was an unrealistic expectation.
Here are a couple of positive notes. Just now I was feeding him in the side position so that we could catch a little cat nap together. I love nursing this way because I can see his precious little face and all of his beautiful blonde hair. He really is a sweet thing and I will treasure these moments. He is also obviously healthy and growing well. To hear that I have a healthy baby really makes me happy and realize that all the struggles are worthwhile.